Kohl...1st Night = A Difficult Night

Last night was pretty rough. The doctors and nurses had told us he would be irratable from the anesthesia, and they were right. It was a sleepless night, but we survived. Literally every few minutes, Kohl would startle/jump and begin to cry. Words just can't even begin to describe what if feels like to see your baby lying there in unimaginable pain and not be able to fix it or hold him, or anything. All that I could do that would soothe him was for me to kind of bundle him down with my hands, stay close and softly reassure him I was there. At one point, our night shift nurse (not the same angel that we had before, during, and immediately after the surgery) let his pain meds (phentenol -sp?) lapse by over an hour. I had been worried that I wouldn't know the difference between an irritable cry and a painful cry. Well, I found out...He startled awake and began to scream inconsolably, but the worse part was the look in his eyes. He had a wild, very distressed and confused look that just reached into my very mommy being and screamed HELP!!!! It was horrible and so obvious that he was in severe pain. When I called her and found out that his meds were way past due, I asked how often they are supposed to be given. So now I am reminding them every 4 hours to bring it to prevent that from happening to my lil angel again! He had earlier taken about 3 1/2 oz of breastmilk from a bottle, I think b/c he was so starving hungry and still so out of sorts that he didn't realize where it was coming from. I later got him to take 1 more oz...but never could get him to take any more for the rest of the night. I think by then, he was alert enough to know that it was not coming from the "right source" and it just aggitated him and made him mad. Around 3:00 a.m. he finally had seemed to settle down and get to sleep after gettin' his meds, so Kevin and I each took a chair. We had barely dozed off when his i.v started beeping, and then beeping louder. I called his nurse, called again, called again...no answer. Kevin had to walk around to find someone who finally found our nurse. She pushed some buttons to shut the machine up without even checking to see what was wrong and said that everything was fine. With Kohl still sleeping, we decided to get some shut eye ourselves. And that was the best 3 hour nap ever! lol Much needed rest for Mommy and Daddy, but more importantly for baby Kohl.